Lady Keon
I’m lady keon, I explore abandoned buildings around Australia with my Kelpie Billy and I live with mental illness. I feel like I live in constant fear of being scared of everything. Being scared of life, of emotions, of people, of places, of people’s reactions, of my own reactions, of people hurting me, of people leaving me, of people lying to me, of people ignoring me, of people taking advantage of me, of people getting to know me.
I’m lady keon, I explore abandoned buildings around Australia with my Kelpie Billy and I live with mental illness. I feel like I live in constant fear of being scared of everything. Being scared of life, of emotions, of people, of places, of people’s reactions, of my own reactions, of people hurting me, of people leaving me, of people lying to me, of people ignoring me, of people taking advantage of me, of people getting to know me.
I’m scared that I’m too big, too tall, too round, too ugly. I’m scared that I’m not funny enough, not happy enough, not sexy enough, not smart enough, that I’m not nice enough. I’m scared to be alone, lonely, and sad but I’m scared to be happy and free of fear. I’m scared to let go of the past, I’m scared I’ll never be acknowledged or accepted or wanted or loved.
I’m scared of letting people down, I’m scared I’m never doing enough and that I’ll ultimately never be enough for anybody, I’m scared of change, yet I’m scared of things staying the same.
